Like a flower in the snow

When people live out of their element things change some will mike it some will weather and die like a flower in the snow it will be strong and make it or get frostbite and die we as people have the same choice we can live or die we have the choice to fight or give up.

I struggle with depression and feelings of being worthless, i have never felt good enough at my job or at relationship’s i always think I’m a failure nothing is good enough for anyone but i was always put down and treated that way i pick men that are just mean and abusive they put me down to feel better about them selfs

I am hard on myself always feeling like i should be doing more, i have been put down to where i feel nothing is clean enough, or I’m not thin enough, smart enough,

I always try to give 120 % at everything i do and even when i am great at something i still don’t feel it, i fake a smile so people cant see how much i hurt and i have got so good at it that people have no idea the things i feel or think about myself, i have no friends and spend alot of time alone because I’m scared to try to be happy, i cant find a relationship because i feel not good enough for anyone. I cry when no ones looking. My feelings get hurt easily and i take things to heart, i have wanted to die more then once in this life but i had one choice and that was to grow and learn, not to give up and die.

What’s your choice.